Because You’re Not …Because You Are

No one will say out loud that she killed herself.

To be honest, I know none of the reasons her friends use softer language, but I can make educated guesses:

Because it hurts to say,

Because suicide is wrong.

Because death is scary and sad

Because she gave up on treatment

Yes, my heart hurts that she hurt so much that she just didn’t see the point anymore.

Suicide can only be wrong if it is committed as a desperate act which could have been prevented if society didn’t build so many barriers to thriving

The expectation of what death is is no worse than the pain and suffering of life sometimes

And I wish she was here now, so many people do and I am saddened at the people who refuse to understand.

In circumstances far less painful people give up and are still respected they lean on money and name recognition for “success” and they parade by crowds in limousines to exercise unearned power.

I will not say my friend passed away, because soft words blunt her reality of interal pain. Nothing will end suffering if all we do is bury humanity in labels to hide their dying hearts.


Published by sickybeat

I am a writer with an extremely active imagination. I love learning answers to questions and what makes everything and everyone tick. I am a "Unique case, medically" if nothing else. I am flawed in my extreme aversion to failure (even when "success" isn't good for me,) but have come a long way in ditching the perfectionist mindset. I like people whose default setting toward others is compassion, an open mind, and honesty

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