I never thought about the help I required As a child. But, By the age of twenty-one The bitterness of dependence, was exposed and running Like a live wire in the street. And electricity jumps at every well intended passerby. I don’t want to need you, Or anyone. And it only serves to ease yourContinue reading “Help”
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Any Moment
There will be a moment, When the label “Health Care,” Is pulled away. To reveal the reality That there is little care behind the title. Because it costs too much, Thin paper can penetrate a body When intent to save is strong enough. Intent to save some, paper.
Waiting
I despise it. And here I am Doing it again, Against my will. I have built a bridge From where I was To this moment Where I can make a mark, That for once, isn’t a scar. But this bridge is missing its last plank As I wait for more wood and nails.
Uncomfortable
The oldest memories in the back of my mind Scare me. Do. NOT. Inconvenience. Mom. Do not wake her from a dream, To pee at night. Even at age four, While staying in a camper without a toilet. Her anger is frightening. So scary, The “inconvenience ” feeling Had tunneled deep into the makeup ofContinue reading “Uncomfortable”
The Day Will Come
When I can make a difference In a single moment. If I can work beyond myself. If I can see beyond myself. If you see the way I hold my head up, It is because I’m looking for the moment change the world To save one small piece of it. And to assure I don’tContinue reading “The Day Will Come”
Prove Me Wrong
When I have a general social group bias Prove me wrong, Please! I. Want. To. Be. Corrected. I want to understand in full. I want to have evidence of my education. I want to have faith in people, And am willing to learn in the name of goodness.
Kindness
What does it say about our values, That, when I made myself available To talk a friend through a mental health crisis, That act, Engendered romantic feelings toward me. A basic act of human dignity, Becomes much more. Acting as a friend, is put up on a pedistal As if it is a rarity ofContinue reading “Kindness”
Mirror Image
In my hundredth Zoom, (Yes, it’s a verb now) I notice a smudge of something on my face Reaching up, The image shown, is opposite my body. I try again and again to wipe off my smudge But my left on the screen Keeps switching places, And my brain just can’t Turn the image inContinue reading “Mirror Image”
Big-Brotherly Love
He came in on a hot evening And hugged fully, Despite my “Sweaty-spring-day” stink. We laughed at things only my family would. Dark and downright ridiculous. We are a unit, with patterns of behavior even long apart. If you know the Runny-Bunny brother, You know the Runny-Bunny. And I am proud of that.
Scholarship
I search for funding To learn more about my passion, Law, advocacy, compassion-sharing. Bold change. And I found a fitting website, Bold.org. And I write essay After essay, Apply And wait. My passion may burn through the screen, And with any luck. It will warm my chances To spend more time diving deeper Into myContinue reading “Scholarship”
