Never

First, never listen to a thunderstorm after 6pm unless you intend to fall asleep.

Second, never stop questioning and learning you will never get bored. The desire for more knowledge will help many more people than ever get harmed. For example: I seek out more information on the way language works in the brain (Noam Chomsky books are so good on the subject and require a literary stamina for the curious bystander. )

I seek out that knowledge to make myself a better listener, future juvenile law judge, and a better writer. I am not so arrogant to believe that I am beyond become better, as my story demonstrates.

Because of my curiosity I stumbled on a writer’s design website called Paint Brush today! Using the free tools I came up with a teaser ffror the book I’m editing.

Yes, it is intentionally blurry. (Partially for effect & partly to maintain an element of suprise!) Do you have any feedback? Thoughts on the title? (Would you be interested?) How does the court make you feel, interested, creeped out, annoyed, or curious?

Stay happy and healthy everyone!

Never record before you shower!

I was working on my (NEW!) SickyBeat Survives Youtube Channel before I showered this afternoon….

Note to self: you get nervous and sweaty recording. SHOWER FIRST. At least until it becomes more natural anyway!

Here’s my Channel link!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMTazSRZvWn137np53Q5tHQ

Stay well and overcome!

Have a good Laugh

Don’t pee yourself. I know everyone needs positivity right now, and the song I am about to share (MY karaoke version anyway!) will likely provide comic relief! Shania Twain is an incredible artist and person… to adapt what Shania once said, “The best way to get to know me is through Shania’s music.”

Enjoy if you can!

https://m.starmakerstudios.com/d/playrecording?app=sm&from_user_id=8444249304545095&is_convert=true&recordingId=8444249306844562&share_type=mail

Staying Busy

Hello all!

I appreciate your patience as I get this site going! Perfectionism & confusion are like oil and water it turns out. Aren’t you ShOCkeD?!?!? Also not beneficial: frequent illness & an aversion to asking for help. I’m working toward finding balance while I continue to create.

In the meanwhile I offer you what keeps me busiest in this time of lock-downs below, with the best of wishes!

No one said deep editing is easy.

(Good!) News, a Surprise, & a Status

Good News!!! I’ll have free Audio content up in the next twenty-four hours! Video & written to follow soon after that!

So far this week I’ve had a medical appointment do discuss results of a pill-camera test (it’s exactly what it sounds like, swallow a pill-sized camera and it takes images of the gut you otherwise wouldn’t get!) My specialists were attempting to source the cause of the major blood loss I had at the very end of last year. They didn’t find sh!t! *see what I did there?

I tried to record some content on the go but, the quality was awful. The good news is I can edit the book the rest of the week. AAAAAANNNNNNNNNNND! I can tell you the main title: SickyBeat’s happy ending. I have yet to work out a subtitle just yet.

Maybe if I get some free content *an audio-excerpt??* posted I’ll get some suggestions….

A little about me: the extreme oddities

I’m one of 7 kids, the smack-dab-in-the-middle child, starting my 3rd decade of life. If I were average, I wouldn’t have racked up more surgical procedures than 3 ordinary people do in their entire lives I wouldn’t know hospital staff well enough that they would invite me places outside of the floor on which they treat me-yet, I have. I often joke with people that I was cosmically designated to experience 90% of the medical problems of my siblings.

These aren’t your average medical issues either, but I don’t want to spoil my upcoming book before it’s even published, so I’ll leave the medical story there for now. Just know, I’m okay if you find randomness and absurdity funny — I laugh at myself and my life daily! Not a negative, judgemental laughter, a “What can ya do?” Laughter.

Laughter doesn’t get me through things as people often seem to imply it should; it can help, but I often laugh out of fear or stress. In stressful situations my laughter rarely makes things easier as those around me then get upset that I’m invalidating their emotional experience of what is happening (e.g. upsetting/fearful). Nonetheless my ability to laugh at those times has proven much less harmful than my habits of internalizing criticism, avoiding assistance in daily living task that Cerebral Palsy makes nigh impossible for fear of resentment, and seeking “perfect” which eventually becomes toxic to my goals.

All of my toxic habits served some purpose in their original contexts. I can see looking back on my last decade the cost of my toxic habits has not been worth it. It took so long to see that even after realizing how the big mental tax for these was, I had to face a “mental collections agency” before digging out was possible.

I’m here, some miles of the journey people had to drag me, and you may have passed by unaware, but this story deserves to be honoured and shared. The process may be slow, documenting properly, but hope to do right by the players within it. Please, stay tuned…

Imperfection on Adventures

2017- my sister got all the height

I’m one of 7 kids, the smack-dab-in-the-middle child, starting my 3rd decade of life. If I were average, I wouldn’t have racked up more surgical procedures than 3 ordinary people do in their entire lives I wouldn’t know hospital staff well enough that they would invite me places outside of the floor on which they treat me-yet, I do. I often joke with people that I was cosmically designated to experience 90% of the medical problems meant for my siblings.

These aren’t your average medical issues either, but I don’t want to spoil my upcoming book before it’s even published, so I’ll leave the medical story there for now. Just know, I’m okay if you find randomness and absurdity funny — I laugh at myself and my life daily! Not a negative, judgemental laughter, a “What can ya do?” Laughter.

Laughter doesn’t get me through things as people often seem to imply it should; it can help, but I often laugh out of fear or stress. In stressful situations my laughter rarely makes things easier as those around me then get upset that I’m invalidating their emotional experience of what is happening (e.g. upsetting/fearful). Nonetheless my ability to laugh at those times has proven much less harmful than my habits of internalizing criticism, avoiding assistance in daily living task that Cerebral Palsy makes nigh impossible for fear of resentment, and seeking “perfect” which eventually becomes toxic to my goals.

All of my toxic habits serve some purpose in their original contexts. I can see looking back on my last decade the cost of my toxic habits has not been worth it. It took so long to see that, even after realizing how the big mental tax for these was, I had to face a “mental collections agency” before digging out was possible.

I’m here, some miles of the journey people had to drag me, and you may have passed by unaware, but this story deserves to be honoured and shared. The process may be slow, documenting properly, but hope to do right by the players within it. Please, stay tuned…