Anxiety. I tried not to let it reign. I practiced self care, And studied. I put my best foot forward, And, as it turned out, I put it out into a puddle, On the way to the exam. And, as it turned out, My ride wasn’t even there. Stay upbeat, Sing in the heavy rainContinue reading “Testing, Do Not Disturb.”
Propagating As in seeds. Propagating a different kind of seeds Seeds of ideas Only the hearty, Fear, hate, and othering Survive. Other seeds planted budding Until they are overtaken by The weeds of propagation. Growing faster than a wildfire spreading in a dry summer windstorm. May we learn the wisdom of the wilderness Before weContinue reading “Propaganda”
That phrase, “The worse they can say is no,” That phrase is a lie. THEY can do a lot. They can deny an opportunity, They can walk out, verbally rip you a new anus, (Be an “Asal,” in Gaelic) Spit in food if they help you cook, They can realize a reason to fire you,Continue reading “No…”
Law and order is: A TV franchise, Where we can appreciate it. It’s Political propaganda . That so many fall for. A machete to cut the ties The ones that bind all but the richest from underneath their feet. So that we cannot climb, Law and order has implications, be afraid unless. Law and orderContinue reading “Division”
I have dreams about my ambitions Dreams that I fail to measure up. I can’t keep up with the work load I pee myself, I don’t show up, until the last week. But I never dream about success or joy. The night is for mistakes, I guess. That leaves the day for victory.
Failure starts it’s morning with cream of wheat,gone cold, with nothing added.Failure is gender-fluida serial hostage taker and sociopathjust like their parents:Fear and Guiltno one would guess how liberal they areand close knit too the three spend their days playing Lifeover. And over. And over. – before lunchhaving justed moved from a Temporal Lobe ghettotoContinue reading “OTD #2”
The oldest memories in the back of my mind Scare me. Do. NOT. Inconvenience. Mom. Do not wake her from a dream, To pee at night. Even at age four, While staying in a camper without a toilet. Her anger is frightening. So scary, The “inconvenience ” feeling Had tunneled deep into the makeup ofContinue reading “Uncomfortable”
What if I don’t measure up? If I get there, and I’m exactly what people think of me on sight, Which is not much. Even though I know that I can do the job. The pressure of the steel ceiling which has yet been broken, Bears on my shoulders and neck. My job is toContinue reading “Insecurities”
As I dance closer to the demarcation line Between the present And change I know I will fail To do myself justice in that near reality, And though I will get back up and March on Believing in nothing better The scars I will bare Will spell out “lesser” In thick rubbery blocks I putContinue reading “I’m Scared”
Who needs horror movies?