Mental Health Court

If I were watering the cement, with blood From a head wound, I wouldn’t want someone to hand me a SpongeBob band-aid, I wouldn’t want someone to try to help, By beating the pain out of me. I would want to get staples or stitches, From a passionate professional. After my wound healed, Or atContinue reading “Mental Health Court”

Will I Ever Live it Down?

Feeling like you’re teetering On the edge of death In a living purgatory all your own. Afraid of everything and yourself Stuck in perpetual drowning: Can make you vicious. Eager to survive, As you die trying. I scratched at anything solid To pull free of mental illness. Having succeeded, And made amens My demon noContinue reading “Will I Ever Live it Down?”

Reflecting on Depression

I dispised my twenties, The decade of depression. I can count happy memories on a hand and a half, And all of them were an escape from the life I lived. Escaping myself was heaven, Pouring myself onto paper was an affordable five-minute replacement. I wrote a lot. And as ugly as the era was,Continue reading “Reflecting on Depression”

The Light of Morning

The light of morning doesn’t always come at dawn. It doesn’t always come in a twenty-four hour cycles It can come in childhood, And leave another entire phase of life in the darkness. It can linger, like a thick fog, frozen in the air against your skin. Darkness is isolating and heavy, But the morningContinue reading “The Light of Morning”

Please Keep Searching

As a begin writing this post, ads for faux diet miracles are floating around in my head. You may have noticed I didn’t put quotes around the word miracles, I chose not to for a reason. Even though quick fixes (for any issue) don’t work for the vast majority, I am confident that every quickContinue reading “Please Keep Searching”

Toppled Tables

Someone in my family suffers from Borderline Personality disorder. Most of us have distanced ourselves to a degree in order to keep our lives moving forward. I reached out yesterday, and this person was sweet and silly on video chat. When they sent a message this morning the difference in thinking was unbelievable. If IContinue reading “Toppled Tables”