Monday I was exhausted, Because of the dropping iron. Tuesday one word: menstruation. Wednesday, I don’t even remember. And Thursday, oh fuck Thursday. School lockdown, Migraine number 1, Two classes, And a grade that made me cry. I am better, I have been giving, working and trying And this grade, one of few is noneContinue reading “Let There Be Darkness”
Last night I felt the waves Stress, bobbing just beyond my nostrils. It will ebb, stress into calm, Sleep into Energy. The work will become more graceful, And I, more skilled, Until then, I will take a breath And hold it. As I lower my head to the crashing. And hang on for the ride.
My body Is refusing to wake ⏰ And when it does, It will not stay that way. I hit my pillow so hard and quickly, There was no time between my fall and my dreams. But I wake, and find, That by the time leave that room, I am tired again. I push through, regardless.Continue reading “Push Through”
Planting the seed of my face On a Monday. Fighting to solve a housing puzzle, And worrying while reassuring a sister. On Wednesday. Going to urgent care, to get cut open, On Thursday. And losing the opportunity to finish my 2nd covid19 vaccine On Friday. But today is Saturday, And I am here.
In the white morning light The world lumbers into motion With not much to do, And a drive to do it. The fog blanketing us in Is about as effective as cotton mouth, We just strike our tongue against the roof of our mouths and march forward. We don’t have to see, We know whatContinue reading “Limbo”
Sick is Barfing, Lethargy. Dizziness. Hot-and-cold. When I can get out of bed, When I can walk and eat But, my spirit is weighted, And I catastrophize, And my drive is suddenly out of gas. All I can do is hope Patiently, For it to pass. The illness may be over, But its echo willContinue reading “Echo”
It’s a lot harder in the moment, Not to bite into that bitter apple of anger. And all those little things, the mindless ones, Are the hardest. And I bite back, When my fuse only warms. But I know, anger’s clothes, And I know to back away And shut up. Let it pass, Honored, andContinue reading “Shake it Off, And Just Stay Quiet”
I skipped a beat because my body took *another* beating, this reheated corpse, grew fingers deep in her right eye socket which spent two days trying to make room upon an unproductive torture session of forty-eight hours, the digits seemed to uproot, and migrate a few inches west to press down between both sockets theContinue reading “Weak of The Living Migraine”
The good, the bad, the frightful, the funny, everything moves ang changes. Some people follow the flow of the world easily, whether they started from a better position, or are purely exceptional at the art of rolling with the punches. I lost my psychological and emotional elasticity at age sixteen, and gave myself a beatingContinue reading “Ride the Waves”
I woke up with what I thought was a sinus headache and took some allergy medication before getting up. over the last twelve hours my “Sinus Headache” has fluctuated from a simple annoyance to: UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHH! I have cold sweats and my mind is cloudy, and that F******* headache. Tylenol was no help. Because I amContinue reading “I’m Still Alive-ish”