When You Just Can’t Win, and the only quitting allowed, is tantrums

Everyone who reads this blog knows i have many health issues. For over two weeks I had severe joint and muscle pain in my leg. Sleeping hurt when I could manage to drift off, I would wake up by 2:30am. That combined with my low energy normal and I was running on empty.

Last Saturday, after grocery shopping I was leaning on my mom just to get back to my room. When I felt normal ish for the first time in two weeks and a usless hip injection i was ecstatic. And cautious.

I went to sleep last night relieved and happy, only to wake up so nauseous and sick that I crawled back in bed before breakfast.

I tried to rise around 11am and was weak and having cold sweats and nausea, i had to get help back to bed again. I slept 3 more hours and laid in bed even after waking.

I cannot rush and push my body, or I’d be back in bed AGAIN. I NEEDED the rest i lacked for two weeks, and my body was going to get it by force.

When I relented, healing came quickly, food for thought


Published by sickybeat

I am a writer with an extremely active imagination. I love learning answers to questions and what makes everything and everyone tick. I am a "Unique case, medically" if nothing else. I am flawed in my extreme aversion to failure (even when "success" isn't good for me,) but have come a long way in ditching the perfectionist mindset. I like people whose default setting toward others is compassion, an open mind, and honesty

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